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i'm fuckn tiredd of this shit so i'mma tell it straight up.. i don't like it when someone says they want to fuckn talk to meeh and then when i fuckn call.. always makes the same stoopid excuses.. ALWAYS.. can't even say once or twice cuz that person always says that shit to meeh.. so i fuckn give up.. i don't care anymore.. it's YOOH with the fuckn problem.. fuckn fuckkk. arghs.. i won't care anymore.. i won't.. shit.. and yooh fuckn hangup on meeh.. fuckn asshole and then i call and yooh make a stoopid excuse.. wuh the fuckk.. fuckn ASSHOLE.. yooh could've gave meeh another fuckn stoopid excuse for hanging up but i guess i'm always wasting yer time.. therefore i fuckn give up.. omigosh.. wuh the fuckk..

ANYWAYS.. i had to vent.. it's all G homie.. i hope.. arghs.. so yesterdae was O__O.. but yea.. i was gonna go somewhere in town but wuhevers.. like i said i waste people's time since they hang up on meeh so i just went home.. and then i was passing near palama on the bus.. and mah back started to hurt so i got off.. i called mah mom and i went grocery shopping there and bought myself candy ^__~.. mann but when i had to fuckn walk home O__O.. arghs soo heavY!!! arghs.. yea and then i got ready and uhh ian and gavin picked meeh up and we parked at ward and went to the evan essence concert.. CATHY DON"T TELL DAD IF YOOH READ THIS OKIES?!! woO and then yea no details please hehe.. and then AFTER.. LOL.. we went to eat a shiros.. thank yooh ian for paying for everything O__O.. i feel bad :(.. arghs.. but it was fuun.. hahahaha.. oO yea ^__~.. stoopid people at the concert.. fuckn assholes.. hahaha oO wells.. wuh ever finds yer remote.. hehe.. i miss chucky.. don't yooh? see yooh in space cowboy..

out of sight.. out of mind.. out of mind.. out of sight.. woOo damnn it.. so i have to go.. hehe i am darkk as hell huh? maybe i should go to the beach everydae to get even more darker.. damnnn.. that'd be cool.. i need to start bodyboarding again.. i never did that shit for like almost a year.. but it's gonna change cuz i have nothing better to do anymore.. and i just want to think to myself cuz no one understands cencia.. the end.. goodbye..

let's see wuh happened.. so yesterdae i went down to waimea with mah homie G tiffany (woO look at that i rhyme ^__~) and yea.. i looked so ghetto-fied during school.. it wasn't even fuckn funnie LOL.. infact i look ghetto everydae.. i just don't like to dress to fuckn impress cuz there's no one that i give a shit about to care wuh i look like.. therefore.. ghetto is the way for cencia.. so yeaa.. i dunno.. so i met tiff in pearl city caught 62 bus.. holie shit we spent like 40 minutes on that bus and we thought it goes down to north shore.. HOLIE MOLIE IT DOESN"T.. so we got off and caught the right bus number 52.. and yea.. got there.. wow scandalous things was going down yesterdae. we met these guys ^__~.. and boy were some of them were cute.. hehe yea.. and then yeaaa something something.. they gave us a ride.. and then mah dad picked meeh up at tiff's house.. BOY! WERE MAH EYES RED.. LOL.. damn salt water.. HAHAHA.. came home.. took shore.. crashed..

hmm todae was eyes were fuckn puffy O__O.. arghs i wonder why.. fuckn salt water.. always fuckks mah eyes up.. yeaaa.. and then i looked sooo tiredd.. i lowered mah grade fuckk i need to do alot of extra credit and stop fuckn up.. it's a lower fuckn A!! I'm fuckn madd!! arghs but i think i'm the top 4.. i hope.. oOO!!! I WENT TO THE STATE LIBRARY.. HOLIE MACARONIE WAS THAT LIBRARY HUMONGO!! O__O.. lol it took meeh forever to walk there.. and then yea caught bus to pearlridge and hung there alone.. i was gonna buy this top but then i was like.. nah it's not that nice anyways.. and then dad picked meeh up and yea.. went to pearl city morning glory.. haha that korean guy knoes meeh.. he tries talkn to meeh in korean.. but yea.. O__O not that good yet.. hmm and then daddie bought meeh "all in" ost soundtrack.. it's fuckn scandalous O__O hahaha oO yea.. and then yea.. i got a new keychain and letterpads to write to chucky ^__~ and i finally got mah bread muhaha i miss chucky.. don't yooh? see yooh in space cowboy.. 

oO yea.. i'm sorrie if i never told yooh.. i guess we were moving too fast.. too fast for meeh to handle.. for yooh to handle.. i always fall out of love easily.. i'm sorries.. but i guess it's all G.. cuz yer gonna get over meeh and get a wonderful gurl.. more better than meeh.. more better than i could ever be.. thats how it works.. good luck.. have fuun and forget meeh.

if yooh notice.. i don't update everydae.. getting more detached from the computer everydae.. but yea.. i'm on it like everydae at school cuz it is a computer english 1 class.. woOot and i'm so cool like that.. i'm happie that everyone thinks i'm smart cuz i always get mah work done etc.. woOot.. hmm.. it's not even that hard of work anyways.. so anywhoOo last night i went to sleep supeRrrRrr early.. like early.. oO wells no one misses meeh.. i guess it's good that i get mah sleep.. by the way.. I GOT 3 LETTERS FROM CHUCKY ^__~ woOot and i sent him like a 6 payge letter and i sent him the printout of mah grade.. woOot i hope mah grade will make him smile and have a happie time in basic LOL.. nah i'm a loser i'm sorries.. hmm.. so yea.. i even go to ala moana alone.. also to pearlridge alone.. also catch the bus alone.. also talk to mahself.. LOL nevermind not the last one.. but i'm alone cuz no more chucky.. chucky and jason were mah homies.. always hanging out.. damn.. I MISS THOSE DAYS SO MUCH -____-;; that was like the turning point of mah life!! if it wasn't for them i would always be home and no offense.. THATS GYEAH.. but i have to admit.. they were good times right? arghs.. i miss it.. i miss every single bit of it damn it.. arghs..

so todae was in the computer lab.. something is wrong with mah school webpayge.. it won't work on the internet so thats mucho gyeah-ness.. arghs.. and yea.. i'm the worst friend in the world.. i don't need to go into detail.. but i truly am.. it's the worst thing that someone could do.. and i won't ever forgive mahself for letting sucha horrible thing happen.. i knoe it's all mah fault.. it's always been mah fault. shit.. i wish i had chucky to talk to.. it was reallie good talkn to him.. i cannot wait until he gets back *snicker *snicker LOL.. nah it's all G.. i stayed at ala moana until 5 cuz i waited for mah dad to come pick meeh up.. DAMN IT WAS SO BORING.. i wanted to go meet him at the beach already.. holie cows i swear like whoaz x___X.. but yea.. hmm let's see.. so we went to foodland in hawaii kai and renee called meeh.. she had something to say to meeh.. i called her not so long ago but she no answer :( and the beach was cool-ness.. now i'm home.. arghs and yea.. tomorrow i'm going to the beach with mah homie G TIFFANY aka TANIQUA LOL.. cuz she's african american like that.. hmm tuna sandwiches.. LOL.. i miss chucky.. don't yooh? see yooh in space cowboy..

i saw a red rainbow.. wut a beautiful view.. i wish i could have such beauty.. but i'm so dark and uglee inside.. i never knew how much yooh hated meeh.. i didn't knoe how much i hated meeh.. i'm sorrie if i ever made yooh hate meeh.. it's all mah fault.. i hate mah self cuz i always say i would if i could.. i should not try.. i just should.. damn meeh.. i'm sucha fuckn loser.. people are fuckn irritating meeh.. but wuhever.. it'll all be over soon.. the end.. good bye.. fly meeh to the moon mah love..

okie pokies.. so yea.. lemme think.. i feel so blah.. and i dunno why.. just thinking and remisnancing about how it use to be.. wuh's different.. wuh's the same.. SHIT.. i'm sucha fuckn loser.. and i knoe exactly why.. it's pathetic i knoe.. hahaha.. how sad.. yooh knoe.. hahahahaha.. i'll laugh it out.. don't worry.. it's all G homie.. okies i'm gonna be fuckn honest.. not like that many people read mah xanga anyways.. YEA.. i do miss everything.. and i knoe it was a more better life for meeh.. and right now is fuckn crap and it isn't going so good for meeh anymore.. i thought i did but reallie.. i'm fuckn empty inside with nothing to strive for.. like for instance.. one year ago.. i use to be in marching band... i thought it was fuckn gyeah.. twirling shit around.. i reallie did want to quit cuz i thought i had better things to do.. but one year later i'm not in that shit anymore and i don't got anything to do? so how does this fuckn shit work out? i have no clue.. but i reallie did start to learn to love it.. hahaha.. i dunno.. it gave meeh passion to strive for something yooh knoe.. but oO wells i don't want to regret about that shit anymore.. fuckk.. but then i do? hahahaha.. yea.. loser i am.. so yea.. and i've been thinking.. i cannot fuckn wait until i'm out and about in the world.. i won't have the slightest clue wuh i want and then i can go and look for it.. adventure.. LOL.. i'm a loser.. no one wants meeh.. HAHA.. i'm not smart at all.. i'm surrounded by geniuses.. future rocket scientists.. doctors.. and other prestigious job occupants.. i never knew how uptight i was about that.. and well on the other hand..

hmm.. i knoe that if i tried everything i could possibly do to make those things that i want to happen.. then i would knoe.. i would truly knoe that i am mah own person and i don't need anyone cuz i'm independent and strong.. the question is.. can i get there on mah own? i miss chucky.. don't yooh? see yooh in space cowboy..

i be pimping it with mah phone.. all the people like the pucca stickers alone.. i say bitch don't touch mah phone.. LOL yea.. i'm gangsta like that..bitch i can fuckn rap :P LOL.. oO yea.. word.. hahahahaha mann i'm so ghetto.. it's not even funnie. keep on hopping away like a pink lil bunnie.. LOL.. oO bitch i knoe i'm so fuckn cool.. yooh better back off yooh short lil fool.. i knoe i can't play pool.. but i hold the stick.. cuz i'm so slick ^__~ LOL